Well Alan sure has made this week very interesting. First he trips walking to his porch and breaks a tooth and couldn’t find it. Next, on Tuesday May 22, he wrecked his car, and now today he had to have surgery. My poor baby had to be cut open. OUCH! Well I still love him anyways and i always will. And last week on May 16 my mom had a stent put in her heart and we found out that it was 99% blocked.. Crazy week, but now it is time to help Alan heal and find a rental car because he starts his new job on Tuesday… Honestly he doesn’t need me because he has his X-Box.. well bye for now….

Last night was amazing!!! And it was all at the same place that I started liking alan a year ago! So much has changed in that year!!!

Screw chemistry i hate hate hate it!!! And can’t sleep cuz my freaking ankle hurts. Thanks!!

Okay this makes no sense to me. If a person is engaged or married they stop carrying about how they look. Why is that?? Just because you live with that person and they see you at your worse doesn’t mean that you don’t have to make the effort to try. If i were engaged or married i would try to get up and still look good for my fiance/husband. I don’t want him leaving ne for someone hotter and just because you have them tied down to you doesn’t mean that you can give them nothing in return. I think its good to plan a date and dress up sometimes. But i guess Idk cuz Im not married yet.

On a second note, band rehearsal is on a different day so now i can go to Eli Young Band!!!! I love it!!! Im so excited!!!!

I still regret my decision daily but i pretend to be happy because i know its what he wanted.

My beautiful flowers from Alan!!!

Two of the best men in my life!! ( not counting my pap or dad)

Hehe had an amazing weekend with him!! Dinner all 3 nights together and movie and concert and even swimming!!! Awesome!! :-)